the tattoo.


Last night, I went into Skin Kitchen to finally get the tattoo that I've been wanting to get for about two years. When we picked out Lotus' name, I was quite sure it would lead to a lotus tattoo and I'd been dead set on getting it ever since.

Walking into the shop, I was 100% sure about this tattoo. I have a decent sized tattoo on my back, so I knew what I was getting myself into and knew what it would feel like. I was prepared with images and colors and designs that I really, really liked. I had drawn designs on my arm at home with a Sharpie, to see what it might look like. I wanted a big ass tattoo on my arm. I was ready. I had thought this over a billion times.

And this is what chickening out looks like. I saw the drawing and for the first time, totally felt unsure about going through with it. And let me just tell you, this is weird for me – I'm normally not like that at all. A bunch of things flew through my head and I sat there for a few minutes, talked with Bo (who was previously the biggest skeptic and had tried to talk me out of this.) But he said, 'Are you crazy? You've been wanting this forever. You know you'll like it when it's done.' Stepped outside, thought some more, went to the restroom, thought some more. Talked to my awesomely sweet tattoo artist, sat back down in the chair and said 'let's do it.'

Then I jumped up again out of the chair right before she put on the peroxide, went outside once more with Bo, and came back in and told her I couldn't do it. Something wasn't right, I didn't feel like I should go through with it; last night just wasn't the night. Trust me, I felt pretty bad about walking out of there, and even though I'm probably a tattoo artist's worst nightmare, they were extremely kind and understanding. So I came home with a pen drawing on my arm and a chance to think about it. Maybe someday I'll go back. But I woke up this morning knowing that I made the right decision.

25 comments:

  1. Whoa! Good story. When its not right its not right.

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  2. hey dude. i am not a tattoo girl, but i can totally understand the back and forth. such a better idea to not get it, regret it and then get it than get it, regret it and be stuck.

    you did the right thing. keep us posted!! e

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  3. it is a pretty bad ass sketch, but you did what is right for you. great story.

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  4. you did the right thing... when the time is right, it's right. maybe you'd feel better about it on your back, or smaller on your shoulder? anyways, i will TOTALLY go with you in TN to get one if you want, even a lil' one. (-: xo

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  5. I was near biting my finger nails off while reading this. I was all thinking, "so did she get it or not" Well you go girl, there were a few times when I should have really thought over my tattoos and walked out of there. I had the same situation go on with the one on my left forearm. After it was done, I looked down and thought "what did I do" I live with it now, and I like it and get some compliments but its gonna be there till the day I die. Oh well:)

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  6. Ive done the same thing... don't feel bad about walking out. It happened for a reason. It was an awesome sketch tho!

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  7. dude. chickening out or intuition, whatever you call it, just be glad you listened. it IS forever.

    tim has a tribal raven on one shoulder and for his 40th he planned to get the matching eagle (w/ crazy shaman face in it) really big on the other side. or huge on his back. i scanned it and printed it out on a transparency so he could get a good feel for it before he went. turned out to be the best idea ever. sometimes, no matter how much you want it, it just doesn't work.

    how about smaller and on your ankle? bikini line? a hahaha ahahahaha! : )

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  8. But you had the guts to step out! I don't know what I would've done, with the pressure of being there and then not wanting to walk out... But you did. And that kinda takes as much guts as getting the tattoo, right? At least, I think so. :)

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  9. Gotta listen to your guts. At least you didn't get home WITH it and thought "oh geeze, tattoo remorse." Always another day!

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  10. That's crazy girl! Something must not have been right with it if you had any doubt! When my arm piece got placed for positioning I was so excited to have it done! Hope it works out in the future for you!

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  11. first, jamaica suggesting you get a bikini line tattoo made me giggle. second, good for you for walking out when it didn't feel right. and i LOVE that photo where you're looking in the mirror.

    and i shit you not - my word verification is "scare".

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  12. First let me say... I SO want a big tattoo on my arm! But, I don't have any yet, and I'm a little afraid to start with a huge one on my arm.

    Second, that tattoo is full of awesome.

    Third, I am so PROUD of you for following your instincts and not pushing yourself into something you aren't ready for. It takes huge guts to back out at the last second because it doesn't feel right. Good for you!

    Love the pictures! It will definitely remind you of the anxiety you were feeling. I was anxious just looking at them!

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  13. sorry for spamming your comments, but...

    where did you get that bracelet? I want one!

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  14. you have to do what feels right for you! it will come and it may not be a lotus but it will the bomb all the same! :) mine have nevery been planned and i love them, want another one on my neck :)

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  15. Here's my quickie: I got all my tattoos either BEFORE I was 18 or at 18 (my mother consented) and if I could snap my fingers today (at age 28) I would get rid of all but two out of the six.

    Good for you and doing what is right for you. Maybe someday? Or maybe not? Good for you!

    Hugs, Mandy

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  16. ive done that same thing a couple of times and to this day i have zero tattoos. you totally did the right thing.

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  17. you're awesome sister... ballsy...most people would have done it anyways. I think it's good you backed out.
    I have one on my hip I regret bc it's so stupid. I had another covered up a few months ago bc it was so faded and stupid...
    no biggie, you have forever to get one. Cool post though!!

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  18. While I think that tat would look completely bad ass, I also think it's awesome that you followed your gut. That took some cajones, my friend. :)

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  19. Its nice to see that someone actually DOESN'T get a tattoo. Since its the norm now, it's nice to see you be an individual and not get inked just like everybody else.

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  20. Wow Jen! I know how excited you were about this, so I'm all that more impressed that you decided to wait.

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  21. there's a time and place for everything. you went with your gut and that's good... maybe later :)

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  22. you are a brave girl, regardless!!
    loved the documented photos and your story.

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  23. Good for you! When it doesn't feel right, it just isn't right... maybe later on you will do it, or maybe not. That's alright! You made the right decision! Thanks for sharing this story!

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  24. Wow! I'm so glad you didn't go through with it since you weren't 100% sure. Awesome photos, story and page!

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  25. Being friends with a couple of tattoo artists, I can tell you that although the girl was bummed with you not going through with it, she'd much rather you leave happy and without tattooed's remorse.

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